Reason I Do What I Do

In my secondary school days. I told myself I will save up to get a license and my dream old vespa when I reach 18. I did.

In 2013, I told myself I will write a book one day.

In 2015, I self-published my own book. That book has sold more than 10000 copies to date.

In 2017 I published my second book.

In 2019 I co-founded @bilal.books , a small startup.

In 2021 I published my third book.

In the same year, I created @summitrehab.sg and started @quiet.sg
The first is at times stagnant, and the latter failed.

In 2022, what started as strengthening work for my injuries due to football, I started to take mountain climbing more purposefully and started @summit.sg . As part of it, I #climb4rashid, to raise funds for a friend who went through cancer.

In 2024, I co-founded a gym to combine Altitude Training and Sports Massage. That failed.

In 2025, I was given the opportunity to return to competitive football with @geylangseraifc & lead mountain expeditions with @jtrace_sg .

All of this while living a common Singaporean life going through a Singaporean adulting system or matrix.

And I prepared more goals to chase, said or unsaid, for the years to come.

The point is, I still do not know where I am going. I try and I dabble fiercely. I am convinced that each milestones and opportunities are actually stepping stones. I am still figuring things out. I am still working my ass off everyday in every aspect every endeavour hoping to join some dots together one day and be able to achieve my own form or level of greatness/fulfillment. I do not know what the future holds. Do I get depressed and anxious, yes many times, cos I am unapologetically hard on myself. Am I tired, yes every single day, but grateful to be so. And do I have faith that things will work out, yes, that's why I am still here, still learning, still trying.

I just wanna grow old knowing I tried living the best I can with all the cunning good and beneficial bad that life presents to me. And hope that when I die one day, all these written, visual and actualized documentations will benefit somebody else in any little way.